I know I have
been off the air for the last three
weeks and I want to tell you how I made
lemonade out of lemons because of it.
On June 23rd about 8:00 at night, Brave
TV sent me an email telling me that they
were having problems with an upgrade and
that there was not going to be a show. I
kept watching the whole week what was
going on and I'm thinking they're losing
money because there was not one show
that went on. And then on June 30th,
something told me to go check their site
and I did and there was a big
um sad face on there saying that they
are permanently closed due to financial
I have to tell you when I got the email
the week before I knew something was
seriously wrong. I just had a gut
feeling and when I saw that it was like
something in my brain broke and then one
of my cars broke as a result. We still
can't get it working right now.
And in that period I was just I was
devastated. I was in denial. I kept
thinking I was in a bad dream trying to
wake up from the bad dream. But the one
thing I did know is that I wanted to
keep the show going and I had to take
some time to get through what I was
feeling and experiencing during this
period because I I couldn't do anything.
I felt like I couldn't function. I was
very depressed and angry and knowing it
was all good. There's still that
emotional side of our humanness that
And what I did is I regrouped once I got
a little bit more clarity like like I
just came to resolution with things and
I reached out to a mentor of mine and he
kind of gave me a little bit of guidance
as well. I decided I'm keeping the show
going. I knew I was going to keep the
show going and I decided I'm going to
reformat it just a little bit. What I'm
going to probably do is have a 30 minute
show. It's going to be live. It's still
going to be Tuesdays at 400 pm Eastern
And then when I bring on guests, I'm
probably going to do about a 45 minute
show is what I'm thinking. So that way
we can have a little bit more time with
the guests to do things. So I'm
navigating this. And right now it feels
the team behind me. I mean, I'm doing
this on my own. And so I'm streaming on
Riverside. I've moved all of my accounts
over to Buzz Sprout. So everything I
have all my shows. I'm so happy about
And I also have an opportunity to bring
that I worked with over at Brave TV. He
was the one who created my artwork and
my openers and closers, which are still
here. I just have to learn how to import
them into a live stream. I can do it on
the audios easily enough, but I'm not
sure how to do some of this. But this is
I just got this program probably about
two hours ago and I got everything
streaming as much as I know to do at
this moment. And once I'm I paid for the
full membership, but I'm on a free trial
and I'll be having a conversation
with an engineer also. I think Friday
afternoon I'll be having a conversation
there as well. to see if I want to bring
the engineer back on or if I just want
to take an opportunity to just try this
for a little bit and get familiar with
doing a live show by myself.
And I have to tell you the
I knew I was I knew this day was coming.
I always knew this day was coming. I
just didn't know when that day was. and
the the executive producer and I finally
got work through a lot of stuff. I was
being sponsored. I had over 41,000
by the time the show shut down. So, I
knew that I needed to keep this show
going. And since I moved over yesterday
because we had some issues with getting
my shows moved over. When I got them
moved over, I had 10 10 downloads
yesterday. And I know it doesn't sound
like a lot, but it is a lot for someone
who thought I was talking to a wall for
two years because I really did think
that because I never got to see my
numbers. I never got to see a lot of
things. And what came out of this was
I was in the process of redesigning a
little bit of Awakening Spirit and the
Kathleen M. Flanigan site and I realized
that I had a lot of walls up and I
wanted to take the walls down. And when
I took those walls down, this is what
happened with Bald Brave TV. I mean, is
it a coincidence? Maybe, maybe not. I
don't know, but it seemed like it. And
the fact that I have downloads and I
wake up and I have 15 more downloads and
then after I'm up for like an hour I
have more downloads. So I'm really
that I mean people want to see my show
and I'm going to keep the show going.
And I had a month of shows ready to go.
And since this is my first attempt to
doing the show live because there was a
lot of things that kept interfering with
me to bring the show up because I really
wanted to do it last week, but I
couldn't get the shows moved over and I
didn't know if it would have been a moot
point, but we got that all fixed out.
Thank Thank you Buzz Sprout team for the
how much they worked at doing this.
The other thing too is just realizing
that I knew that all the first thing I
thought when when the show went down and
I was in plummeting was realizing that
this is a course correction. And I
didn't know what that looked like. I
didn't know what it meant, but I just
felt like it was a course correction.
And when I I don't remember if I told
you that I had met this incredible woman
last month and there were lots of things
that have shifted and changed from
knowing her and we have been in
and a lot of other things are still
happening and shifting and moving and
changing and some of the things that
I've always said with the ascension
that one day we are going to just wake
go to bed one night and wake up and if
we are in conflict with our partner and
we're supposed to be leaving and they're
And that started happening for me a
couple of days ago where I feel like I'm
just like people are just starting to
walk out of my life. And I think Brave
TV had some of that to do with it. I
mean, I loved doing the show. It it was
I looked forward to doing the show and
being here with you. And I'm even more
excited because now I have so much more
control and I'll be able to see more of
what you want because until I saw the
downloads coming in in January when I
got my first I think January I had like
6,350 downloads or something in January
and I could actually start seeing what
you guys were looking for and what you
wanted. And so I started tailoring
the show based on what I was observing
of what you were downloading. And it's
interesting because even with these new
because I'm on some new platforms and so
I know that some of this is part of the
new platforms that are downloading that
are discovering the show and I don't
know if they're making announcements or
whatever. I don't know any of that yet.
I'm very very very much in the infancy
stage here. But the fact that I'm seeing
what you guys are still wanting and I'm
going to continue to deliver that,
it makes sense to me to do that. I I
feel like the that the changes that I
felt at the end of last year in Jan in
December and feeling like what was going
and everything that happened between you
know Sal's injury, my father passing
away, then the show dying. Okay, that's
three things. The show dying.
I I woke up today feeling like, oh my
god, I am finally I feel like I'm
finally back in that energy field that I
felt on January, the end of December of
what January was supposed to look like
and what this year was supposed to look
like. So, I think there's a lot of
things that have happened. There's
probably some more alignment stuff going
on planetarily. I don't know because I
haven't talked to an astrologer because
I've just been navigating some very
I've really got to see a lot more about
who I am and how I'm navigating and how
much I've changed, which is really
exciting. And I've also come to the
realization of I've discovered more of
And I think that's one of the main
things is really learning that side of
myself as far as really valuing who I am
and moving into a new direction. I I
mean I don't know where this show is
going to go. All I know is that I feel
hope for the first time since the
beginning of the year because when you
have one major thing after another after
another after another happening, it does
have a tendency to beat you up.
And I kept plugging away and I kept
facing things and I created this little
bath ritual about this thing with my
father because he was trying to pierce
the veil and I wouldn't let him and I
this is exciting. I actually created how
the money. How do I want to say this?
issues in a particular lifetime where we
put a judgment on it. We put a vow of
poverty. We did something and no matter
how much mindset work you do and how
much you change all of that, if you
don't get to the core of what that is,
it's not going to change. Well, in this
3-week period when I was not knowing
what to do, right before the show went
down, I created this amazing meditation
that talks about how to go back to the
core of when you created your
limitations on money as far as if it's
not flowing or you created a vow of
poverty and how to release that. and
you're going back into your timeline.
And then when you do that, you're going
to erase, you're not going to erase it,
you're going to transmute it. And then
you're going to weave in different
intentions around money. And when I was
meditation and I was just sitting there,
you know, getting feel of the pacing,
making sure it was going to work the way
I was actually doing the meditation with
my eyes open and then there were times
when I closed and and I had this most
amazing graphic and I'm going to and I
know I can be able to show this uh in
Riverside eventually and I'll figure
that out to show you what I woke up to.
Well, not woke up but came out of the
meditation looking at and then when I
finally decided to do the meditation
undivided attention and go through the
I had the same thing show up. And I
don't have screen savers on my computer
or anything of what came out of this.
I'm I'm going to do a little bit more
testing on it. I've got three people who
are lined out to experience it, tell me,
get their feedback, make sure that
everything sounds like and then I'm
going to bring it out because we're all
entitled to have money and we're the
ones that stop the money flow coming in
for whatever reason. And I know that I
don't have any issues around money. I I
think I've done so much mindset work on
money and changed a lot of things about
but it was like but there was something
and I knew I didn't have a vow of
poverty or anything. I know other people
have and I've seen them move remove that
when they were aware of when that
happened, but I didn't have that and I
didn't know where I created it. Well, I
found out very very quickly where it
happened and I and it made perfect sense
of what I did. And I'm thinking that
even though you're not going to see
immediate re results because you know
this is a life these are lifetimes that
what I'm finding that by doing it I set
things in motion. And I think that's
another reason why I feel like what I'm
feeling right now is because I've set
things in motion where I'm now in
control of my money. not somebody else
because Brave TV really did control the
money and they didn't follow through on
the things that the contract said. I
mean, they never really did the
The beauty and the grace that I received
being able to get really good at what I
was doing, feeling comfortable on the
show, understanding more, feeling good
that I was coming out, but the I was
still under a veil. And I didn't know I
was still under a veil until I came out
and I'm doing this because now I feel
like really exposed and I will have my
numbers. I will have algorithms working.
I will have a lot of things working that
they did behind the scenes because I was
under their umbrella and this is no I'm
no longer under their umbrella. I'm on
me. This is all about me and what I'm
doing. And so I can build the reach that
I have been striving to build. And thank
this event with Brave TV that I I I got
to see that people really did want to
hear what I had to say. And what's
really interesting is I was one show
of two years on Brave TV. I had 103
episodes with them. I was one of the
longest running people and I had never
intentions of leaving. So, um, again,
you know, sometimes when things are
meant to be, spirit's going to intercede
and do things. And that's exactly what
spirit did is that when I was
comfortable enough to come out
and felt good because I can do all the
backend, I could do show prep, I could
do everything. It's just this front end
that I didn't know how to do. And you
know what? It's finding out. It seems
like it's pretty easy. This recording
seems to be going really well. I know
right now I feel like I should be taking
a commercial break because I'm at 15
minutes, but I'm not going to. I want to
keep talking about just this. I just
want to welcome all of you. I want you
to know that I'm still here. I'm not
going anywhere. This is the plan is to
keep the show moving forward and that
I'm going to be bringing in guests
again, but I'm going to be going deeper
into the things that I'm teaching and
learning because in this 3-week period,
I have gone further into myself. I have
more clarity. My intuition
has gotten stronger. or maybe I just got
comfortable in it. And that's the thing
that is such that's what's so cool about
all of this is just how much things
I got a new roof yesterday. That was
awesome. Finally, I got a new roof. But
I got to listen to everything pound for
all day long. But you know, little
things. And to me, for some reason, that
was good because I really had a very bad
roof for many years and I didn't realize
it because I had been dealing with the
water damage in my basement. And I just
got sidetracked with getting the roof
done and now that's done. And it feels
like the house feels really happy. I I
know I sound really wacky. I get that.
But it does. It feels good because it
was like it was like a big burden was
taken off my shoulders that I don't
didn't even know it was there. And then
another cool thing is that I've been
invited to speak about aromatherapy on
another podcast. And so I'm sitting here
going, well, you know what? I can do my
own podcast on Awakening Spirit on
And I may do that. It's not going to be
under this envelope of where I am with
this one because this is totally
different than aromatherapy. But I feel
like I have an opportunity that so many
doors just open for me and they've been
coming in, but I haven't really stopped
long enough. and I didn't know how to do
the aroma therapy store show show
because I was on the network and since
I'm off the network I could do that now
and just have it completely separate and
apart from this which is really cool
too. So I love when there are
opportunities there and then what
direction do I want to go and how much
do I want to work to make things happen.
As you can see I'm still in my same
studio. So, what I did is I just
rearranged my office and my desk. So,
instead of seeing the back side of it, I
moved the desk. It's more in the center
of the room, so you can see a little bit
more. I think there's more things I want
to try to do, but I haven't. But I
wanted to just make this so that you're
here in my home and you've always been
in my home, but I don't know if you've
known that you've been in my home doing
this. And now we are. You are. And I'm
really excited to be here and to
continue this process. I'm excited about
some of the shows that I've got coming
up for this week that just keeps taking
you back into who you truly are, into
your magnificence. I'm on this journey
with you guys. I really am.
I, you know, I'm as human as you are. I
may have a few more tools in my tool
belt. I may have been doing this a lot
but I understand where I'm at and I do
see where we're going. I have always
been close to 20 years ahead of the
world and I'm still there and I get that
now and I'm okay with it. I feel like
I'm starting to meet more of my soul
family. I mean my true soul family, not
the wannabes or people that are close
but we're not quite that connected and
I'm starting to meet that. And it's just
this amazing experience of finally being
able to talk to people so when I sound
crazy they sound crazy too. it and we're
not crazy because we actually know the
truth and the reality of things and
that's what's really exciting which then
gives me more confidence and in my own
ability starting to see my own worth
more and all of that makes a big
difference in life. I mean we always
don't think that but we really do and we
don't know what we don't know until
something starts to present itself. So,
this whole show going down has been it's
catapulted me and I don't even know
where I'm being catapulted to yet, but I
my next book. I have been writing about
a lot of things that I've been doing
during this process. And I know
eventually I will probably talk more
about it, but I'm still very much in the
But I'm at least sharing where I'm at
and what I'm doing and and I'm, you
know, I'm blazing I'm blazing a trail.
That's all I'm doing is, you know, I'll
like I told some of the people that I'm
talking to lately is I never wanted to
be seen. I do my best work when I'm
invisible and I still do. But I'm
willing to be the f the front person for
these other people to do the things that
they need to do because I know that
nothing can harm me anymore. I am very
very very well aware of that and I don't
have any issues about coming out and
sharing anything about myself. The other
thing that I discovered in the last
several weeks also was whenever I put up
my name, I always came up as Awakening
Spirit, which was my company.
I'm now coming up as me. And I'm seeing
that more and more people are coming to
me. I have some of the most
interesting, amazing people coming
towards me with stories that I mean,
there's one person that with a story
I don't even know if I know how to
handle it yet. That's how intense it is,
but it's a story that needs to come out
about the times that we are in today.
So I feel very honored and privileged
that there are people who want to come
on my show to go into the depth of where
I want to take this show and they're
coming forward so I don't have to go out
and find them. So, I'm looking at that I
because of the work that I've done
through Brave TV that and all the work
that I've did to get to promote the show
and take the show further and market the
show to the best of my ability. I think
all of that has helped me to get here
that I think that this catapult is
because this foundation was laid so
in my blindness, so to speak, behind a
veil of darkness that I didn't know was
there. And I'm not saying they were
evil. I'm not saying that. It's just
that sometimes when we're behind a veil,
you know, we can't see. It's dark. It's
shadowy. And I think that was it. and my
own personal battles of I was going to
do this show no matter what. And I took
control to the best of my ability when I
was having trouble with Brave TV last
year and I'm still here today. And
amazing is that tenacity really does
keep it because we want to be in a
7-Eleven world. We think we're in a
7-Eleven world and we're not. The
microwave is too slow. But see, that's
not life. Life doesn't work that way.
Yes, we are accelerated. Everything is
accelerated right now. We don't have
time to think about anything. It's like
all we do is react and react and react.
And everything that I am developing
is for you to slow down. Not give up,
slow down. Because when you slow down,
you can see what's going on. You can
start looking back at what the value is
of your life. And you have a value
regardless of what you think or people
tell you. You have a value. And it's in
the slowing down process. I created
the spirit of scent for awakening
spirit. It's four essential oils. It's a
quiz. You go on awakeningsspirit.com.
You can take that and there's things.
It's there's a little quiz you can take.
It's all free to get you to start to
slow down. Take in life through
essential oils. And when I created this,
every time I tried to do it, there's
only one oil I couldn't get to because
I'm still in my own personal deep
healing because of this whole thing with
my father. Now, I think I'm fine, but I
know that the minute I say that,
something's going to happen and it'll
change. I already know that, so I'm not
going to worry about it. But I'm just
saying that, you know, I have the
activation of light guide. I have how to
find peace in chaos. All of these things
are on my websites. I've had people that
have bought the heal emotionally now
I'm going to rename it because it's not
the right name. I don't know what that
name is yet, but I know it's going to.
And I watched their lives change. They
did like a 180 degree flip of where they
were going and the trajectory of their
lives today is night and day. I have a
protege right now that I am going to
teach what I know for her to help. I'm
looking at working with four decades of
to bring in the language to reach the
younger generation because from what I
was told about the babies coming in,
we need to help the babies coming in.
And not that there's anything wrong with
the babies, it's the babies need to
understand what the truth really is in a
world that is still transitioning.
We are in a hundred year. We are now
gone through 20 years of this transition
We are out of Pisces and we are now in
Aquarius. That's a hundred years
generation. That's five generations
before all of the old limiting thinking
before the new energy is completely 100%
manifested in. Those are things that I
know. Those are things that the
archangel told me and this is all in my
books dancing souls. So if you want to
really understand more of who I am and I
also got clarity about the books that I
understand my books even more that when
they said that they were a manual now I
understand more because you know when
you're in it and you're writing it you
don't see what they're seeing until
things start to change and move. And the
minute you start changing and growing
and evolving and recognizing who you are
more, all of a sudden you start seeing
things differently. And now I'm
beginning to see a bigger picture. I
don't see the whole picture. I can
promise you that. But I'm seeing a
bigger picture of the value and what I'm
bringing to the world to help us.
Because you know what? With AI coming
in, the world is changing even more
because of AI. And regardless of AI,
it's still artificial intelligence.
It's not a connection and it's
programmed. And there's a darkness
within AI. And I also just put the light
That's what I do. I'm bringing light to
the planet in any way that I can
possibly bring. So, I have three minutes
left and I want to thank all of you for
your support. I want to thank you for
holding the space, for allowing me and
waiting for me to come back. I want to
thank you for still downloading my shows
even though I've been missing in action
for three weeks, which were was not by
my design, but I am coming back bigger,
better, stronger, and more authentic.
So you can do that. I want to show you
how to step back into your power. I want
to show you how to bring the real you
out and how to use the tools that we are
given through AI and all of that, but
it's still you and it's still a human
connection. That's who we are. We're
still human beings and we can still
navigate all of this. But it's up to
each and every one of us to do that.
Again, if you like the show, feel free
to like and subscribe to the show.
pass that on to somebody if you think
that you'll find value there. And again,
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spirit of scent where you can start
um taking back your power and finding
how to relax in a very chaotic world. I
also have Grandma's natural remedies
that I have CD products that actually
really do work instantly because of the
use of the essential oils. And I'm going
to keep bringing out products. I still
have a lot more that I'm haven't
finished, but they're almost there. So,
I have a lot more I'm bringing out to
help you navigate. So, again, I want to
thank each and every one of you for
being here today. I am so honored and
blessed to be a servant to help guide
and navigate. And from my heart to
yours, I hope you all have a fabulous
