Unveiling the Path to Self-Discovery and Spiritual Transformation

KATHLEEN: Hello everyone and welcome to the show, The Journey of an Awakening Spirit. I am your host, Kathleen Flanagan and we are on the Bold Brave TV Network. Today, what I'd like to do is just introduce who I am, how I got into what I'm doing and where I am today, it all started when I was about 16 years old.

KATHLEEN: My mother had invited me to go to an Edgar Casey meditation group and I was bored. I said, what the heck, why not go. We did a meditation and what I thought was God at the time.

KATHLEEN: I received the rod in the staff and I was told that I was going to change the world and of course, at 16, what did I tell him? I said they were nuts and, and I argued with them and said there's no way. I was lost and suicidal at that time that I couldn't even fathom any of this.

KATHLEEN: I of course accepted it and said, ok, if you think I can do it, I'll give it my best shot.

KATHLEEN: I told everyone about this meditation that I had had and everybody kind of oooh and ahh and I thought something like this was natural that people have on a regular basis, which they didn't. My mother was very jealous as well. She let me know that she thought what I had experienced was not real and that I had made it all up and told me that I couldn't see anything.

KATHLEEN: I am a very intuitive person and I can see which I shut down when my mother said that from the power of suggestion. I could see I can hear and I can feel and I always have a very, very, very profound sense of who I am and where I belong.

KATHLEEN: I trusted that because I thought everybody could do what I did. That's not the case. As I got older, I ended up in a drug rehab because I, like I said, I was suicidal and I didn't want to live. If I was gonna have my parents life, I would rather be dead because I could not see living a life that way.

KATHLEEN: I ended up in South Florida in a drug rehab and I didn't do much drugs. It was just that the attitude of death was there for me.

KATHLEEN: I continued on, I got straight, I got off of drugs and I started really discovering who I was. I didn't have a voice back then. I did not know how to speak. I didn't know how to communicate. The only way I knew how to go through life was through dance. It was the only way I knew how to express myself at that time.

KATHLEEN: If things would bubble up like they do when you're learning about yourself and having to realize that you're not perfect and I'm 18 years old that's really hard to accept as well.

KATHLEEN: I would explode. I would vomit on people in a very explosive way because I had no way of understanding anything about me. I had no idea who I was at the time. I felt very lost and confused, but I continued moving forward and I started studying the principles. I learned how to meditate and that was probably the biggest gift that I gave myself was learning to meditate because I started to realize who I was.

KATHLEEN: I started to feel peace and tranquility. I was able to realize that I was bigger than who I thought I was at the time. But that was just the tip of the iceberg. There was so much that I had to learn as the years progressed to really understand.

KATHLEEN: How to anchor all of that in. That's a lot of what I want to talk about. During the show is various tools that I've learned along the way that have helped and it was a variety of tools because everything I learned to do some things work better than others. But everything led me to where I am today.

KATHLEEN: I ended up moving to Colorado and the reason I moved out here was because my grandmother who was deceased at the time, was nudging me to call my mom. I was estranged from my family for a lot of reasons and we will be discussing all of that in the months to come.

KATHLEEN: I wouldn't listen to her. I didn't want to be bothered because I didn't want to deal with my family because, they were crazy people in my opinion. I was crazy too. I didn't want to add to my own craziness. I refused to deal with my family.

KATHLEEN: One day I was going through the dining room and she just screamed as loud as she could in my ear and said, call your mother now. I was like, ok, so I picked up the phone, called my mother and then I ended up going out for a visit to Colorado. A year later I moved out because I absolutely loved it out here.

KATHLEEN: It was time to move. South Florida wasn't a safe place to be anymore. In that process of, before I did all that, I was learning more about spirituality. I was discovering who I was. I learned about the brotherhood of the white light.

KATHLEEN: I was working with the brotherhood of the white light. I had meditations that I was a member of the Council Of Nine. I know some of these terms can be very foreign to you and we will eventually get into all of it.

KATHLEEN: The part that was hardest for me was when I would go into meditation and the Peacefulness and the love that I felt. I got to a point where I didn't want to go into meditation anymore because I never wanted to come back because the world was very harsh and it's nothing like what it is today.

KATHLEEN: It was still very harsh for me because I'm very sensitive. I feel everything. I have water and fire in my chart. I have no air and no earth. I feel everything and I have the passion of a lion. Ok?

KATHLEEN: That is who I am. Every time I went up to the Council Of Nine and we kind of talked about things or when progress reports or whatever it was that we discussed at the time, it was always time to leave. I said, no, I don't want to go. Well, you have to go.

KATHLEEN: I don't want to go and I'm not gonna go, you can't make me. Then they would proceed to tell me why I'm going back to earth. I did every time I always went and it was is a game I play with spirit.

KATHLEEN: I don't know why I do it, but I still do it to this day where I am a little bit combative at times and it's all good. They'll accept me, they love me. It's OK. I'm not near as bad as I used to be, but I still do it.

KATHLEEN: When I came out here, I found the school of metaphysics and I ended up in there. I started learning a little bit more about harnessing my intuition. My teacher at the time had told me that she couldn't believe that I was as intuitive as I was. I told her. She said people would give their right arm to have 1/10 of what you have.

KATHLEEN: I said, well, they can have it. She was mortified that I would actually say such a thing. What she didn't understand is that being that intuitive, you feel things, you hear things, you see things and it's not like you can say things to people or if I did, I would scare people, not realizing what I was doing at the time.

KATHLEEN: I really struggled with it. What we did is I started to learn how to harness it because she said once you start harnessing this, you're going to be able to not have these wild crazy dreams and you'll be able to understand a little bit more of who you are. Since she was an astrologer, I started learning more about myself because of astrology.

KATHLEEN: That was very fascinating, not that I wanted to study it, but it was fascinating because I finally understood a lot more of why I was here, why I was the way that I was what I was here to learn. The main thing was I needed to know who I was.

KATHLEEN: That was the main thing I chose to learn in this lifetime is who am I really? I have spent a lifetime learning who I am. I know who I am because in astrology, they say that once when I pass after this lifetime, I will never not know who I am ever again. So it's pretty exciting. It's taken a lifetime. It's a journey, it's a lifelong journey.

KATHLEEN: I learned more about healing how to read energy better. I was developing, not necessarily developing more of my intuition but trusting my intuition.

KATHLEEN: Then as a result of that, I was given a message that I was going to work with the oils practically 10 years before I started. I was coming down my stairs in this apartment I was living in and spirit was clear as day you're gonna be studying, you're gonna be working with the oils.

KATHLEEN: Ok, whatever that meant, I had no clue. We didn't have internet back then. We didn't have anything. We weren't even anywhere remotely where we are with technology or alternative health or any of that. Well, 10 years later, because I had gone through some serious illness.

KATHLEEN: I had gotten a swollen epiglottis. I was hospitalized for several days. I almost died. They were gonna do a trachea me on me because I couldn't breathe because I had a severe sinus infection.

KATHLEEN: What happened was from that because they prescribed 500 mg of antibiotics for a month. Then an additional two weeks, I had an additional 250 mg of antibiotics. I got Candida because of it. I didn't know this at the time and I didn't realize that this was a malpractice suit at the time, but I ended up getting very sick.

KATHLEEN: I was becoming a migraine sufferer on a regular basis. I always had migraines but never to the degree that I was getting them where they were lasting several days. I missed work. I was taking scalding hot showers. I was doing all sorts of things to to hurt myself to try to heal myself.

KATHLEEN: The one day I got out of the shower after I was sitting in a scalding hot shower, I was butt ass naked on the floor and I was crying to God and said, please take me now. This is no way to live. I'm not going to live like this, this pain is unbearable, this is not what we're supposed to experience in this life.

KATHLEEN: The next day I think I felt better. I went to the office and I was talking to a coworker and she introduced me to a naturopath and she got me on Coptis for two weeks. No, a month, I think it was two bottles. It was horrible and, and I started feeling better and as I started feeling better, I started paying attention to what's in my house.

KATHLEEN: It's not making me feel good like the chemicals for cleaning harsh chemicals for my body, my soap, lotions, all these things. I started going down this path. I'm still about 10 to 20 years ahead of everybody else on natural healing modalities.

KATHLEEN: A friend of mine, my astrologer friend, the teacher, she and I went to the Botanic Gardens and she said, you know, lavender would help with your headaches. I'm like, yeah, ok, if you say so and she was right because I ended up buying a bottle, even though I thought she was crazy. I bought a bottle and I smelled it and put it on my temples right here.

KATHLEEN: I could feel a migraine coming on and it was hours later and I was vacuuming my house and I realized that I should have been in a full-fledged migraine. There was something to this. I ended up taking an aromatherapy class with Mindy Green out here in Boulder. I fell in love with the essential oils.

KATHLEEN: I fell in love with them. I didn't know how they worked. Why they worked. All I know is that they worked. My mother was my guinea pig at that point because she had all sorts of different ailments and it was like mom, try this, try this, try this and everything worked for that woman.

KATHLEEN: I accepted that this was what was going to go on and that it worked and then CBD comes along and I want a grandma's natural remedies line that is for pain, which is strictly CBD, isolated and broad spectrum because I started realizing that the endo cannabinoid system and we are wired for CBD. I was just blown away as far as how effective that was.

KATHLEEN: The one thing everybody complained about, besides the fact that there is a lot of fraud in this industry was, people complained about how long it took to have relief. When you use my products, there was relief instantly because all my products are topical and I use essential oils.

KATHLEEN: The amazing thing about this is that essential oils and CBD work so well together. The reason I got into CBD is I had a very sick cat who ended up dying at 7.5 months, but we gave him CBD. We got two more weeks of life out of him because he was just amazing. I mean, it was amazing to experience that.

KATHLEEN: What I want to do here on the show is that I want to teach you some training techniques and tools that you can use to help in your evolution in your growth, to help you give you some coping mechanisms.

KATHLEEN: A different way to look at things, start learning about what your paradigms are, how your thoughts are things, all that kind of stuff. Until we get a handle on what we're thinking or not thinking nothing is going to change in your world. That was probably the biggest thing because when we have paradigms, a lot of times it's our subconscious mind that is talking to us.

KATHLEEN: If we don't know what those things are, then we keep having the same experiences over and over and over again until you do something different. A lot of times we don't know what that difference is and we don't even know what's running us.

KATHLEEN: A lot of the teachings and the techniques and the tools that I've learned over the years have actually helped me to start understanding. Even though I had paradigms, and I think the biggest one that hit me the hardest was my mother had always told me that you work to pay your bills. Well, I didn't have any bills and I didn't have any money and that didn't work for me.

KATHLEEN: I had to rethink about working and why I was working and it wasn't about just making money to pay my bills. I work so I can enjoy my life, do things, experience different things in life.

KATHLEEN: It took being in this place where I had no money coming in and feeling poor that I realized that that paradigm came in and then I was able to shift it. There are things as we go through our journey in life, we learn things along the way.

KATHLEEN: I also intend to have guest speakers in once a month. Usually the second Tuesday of the month. That's going to talk about what it's like to be living their dream what their spiritual evolution has taken, why they're on the path that they're on.

KATHLEEN: A lot of variety because I think you can gain a lot from learning other people's experiences and perspectives because sometimes they have an experience that is very similar to you that you can relate to way better than you could ever relate to me. It's what it is. I know that I'm not all things to all people. I already know that I'm not ignorant and I'm not egotistical that way.

KATHLEEN: I know that there's a lot to learn in life and there's a lot of different ways. When they say there are so many different ways back home to God, there is a reason why they say that because there are a lot of different ways and we resonate with people differently and I'm hoping to bring a wide variety of people to talk about lots of different things.

KATHLEEN: When you're talking to people and they're having dreams and our dreams that if they're really big and meaningful. They're not going to happen overnight. We want to live in a 7-Eleven world. But if things don't manifest that quickly, we still have to go through the seven layers of consciousness, we have to bring everything back before it manifests.

KATHLEEN: The big reason for that big dream is about your evolution is about the journey. That's why I call this the journey of the Awakening Spirit because I was always rushing to the destination and I could never understand it's the journey to the destination. That's where you're gonna find the value. I know what that means now.

KATHLEEN: I truly understand that, but that was a lifelong journey because I was impatient and we are perfect the way we are. Everything we do is perfect. If we were supposed to be someplace else, we would be. Where you are is perfect where you belong. That's what you chose based on your thoughts that you've had at that time. Those are the thoughts that you've had to be where you are today.

KATHLEEN: When you start changing your thoughts, even if you take one tiny baby step in a different direction, the miles of change that will happen down the road is unfathomable. Those are the things that I want you to experience and to show you through that. I'm also going to have Zach Lioutas on my show the last Tuesday of every month.

KATHLEEN: She is an amazing woman and she is my soul sister in my mind because she and I can sit down and have a conversation and her life is mine. Mine is hers. We have had some of the most bizarre experiences.

KATHLEEN: Not always the pleasant experiences, but she talks to spirit like I do. She's willing, we're going to open phone lines so you can have a Q and A session. She may be willing to give readings. It's gonna be up to her what she chooses to do.

KATHLEEN: We laugh all the time about our experiences when we talk to each other. We talked about the show and it's like the things that these people are going to hear is going to blow their minds of what goes on. I think you're gonna have a lot of fun because we intend to bring a lot of healing.

KATHLEEN: Through the show and laughter is one of the best ways to heal and we're gonna probably laugh a whole lot.

KATHLEEN: That's pretty much the outline of the show. I also have, an email that's gonna be Brave TV at Kathleen M Flanagan dot com. That way if you have any questions or if you have any topics that you would like to talk about, or have us talk about on the show, I am more than willing to do this because I want this show to be about you. I want what it is that you're looking for in the show.

KATHLEEN: I don't need to sit here and rattle on about what I've been through and how wonderful I think I might be or not or any of that. I have a lot of experiences and I've walked my talk through every bit of everything I'm going to share with you is what I've been through and I haven't had an easy life by any stretch of the imagination.

KATHLEEN: We have the dark night of the soul that we'll talk about. My experience is moving to Chicago. I will talk about various abuses that I've experienced and how I've dealt with them and what spirit had brought forth, how I turned around and changed my perspective and how to deal with it.

KATHLEEN: Looking at what my paradigms are, how to be happy because that's totally up to me to be. Nobody else can make me happy but me and just because life is happening around me and life sucks some days doesn't mean I don't have to be happy and really taking control of your thoughts because that's really paramount of having the best life you can have.

KATHLEEN: That doesn't mean shit is not going to happen because it will, it just will. It's just what it is, but it's how you handle it, how you manage it. I have so many tools and how to deal with that and how to walk through your fears when they come up, when you start making big changes, there's just so much, I can't even tell you how much there is.

KATHLEEN: I'm so excited about the show. I'm also a consultant. I also have programs that are on the KMF site that you can download or purchase about healing and various meditations, how to open your heart through sound because there's just so much.

KATHLEEN: Then of course on Instagram and Facebook, I also, and now TikTok, I'm actually putting up little tip videos out there on what I'm going to be talking about on the show. These are three minute tip videos, but we can unpack them as we proceed through the show.

KATHLEEN: I do definitely have a lot of that coming up. I've already planned the next several months of the shows and I hope you find it worth it. I will be opening phone lines as well and I may be taking polls or we can have discussions.

KATHLEEN: It's going to be a wide variety of things and I'm gonna let Spirit guide me as we go through because spirit really is guiding the show and I'm pretty excited about it.

KATHLEEN: The one thing that I think is really cool about being on this show and, when I was contacted, I had broken a bone in my hand in August and Spirit had been telling me to slow down and by the time I broke my hand, it was, if I go any slower I'm going to be dead. That's how I felt. I might as well just be dead.

KATHLEEN: What I was doing is I was getting ready to go on the speaking circuit because I wanted to get out there and I've always saw myself on stage. I wanted to be on stage and as I was sitting there and I'm thinking, well, I don't know if I really want to go through all the DIA, TSA stuff at airports and certain things. I'll do it but I, it wasn't something that was really exciting me at the time because the airports make me crazy with all this TSA stuff.

KATHLEEN: I sat there and well, I don't know what I'm going to do or what I want. Then I get this email from Bold Brave TV. I was intrigued by it. So I thought, ok, I'm going to respond and I remember talking to, one of the producers I think is what his title is.

KATHLEEN: He said, I don't believe in coincidences. I said, well, let me tell you, I do and let me tell you why. What was so funny about this was, you know, everybody likes you, everybody's seen you, you're like the whole package. Everybody wants you on the show.

KATHLEEN: He said, and it's all about how I that found you. I said well, let me tell you something of why this was not a coincidence. I said, I've only been doing this for five years and there are people that have been doing this way longer than me that are more knowledgeable have been on the stages, are more polished than I am.

KATHLEEN: But for some reason, you found me for the five short years and I haven't done much in the last couple of years and yet you found me. I said, there is something there.

KATHLEEN: So part of this is the dream that I had was to speak in front of thousands of people, like 50,000 people on stages. I think that's what was so funny about this is that it was always this or something better because why should I put myself in a box on a dream that I might have?

KATHLEEN: When you say this or something better than you are allowing spirit God, the angels, whatever you want to call it to come in and help you. This was something better. It's taken forever to get here. It hasn't, but it felt like it because I got so excited about this show.

KATHLEEN: Being able to have a new platform to reach people, to be able to talk to people, to be able to share what I need to say because I have a lot to say and a lot of where, what I talk about is the real thing. I don't think I'm your go to guru by any stretch of the imagination.

KATHLEEN: If I don't have what you need, then find somebody else is what I encourage you. But I want to teach you how to find the right teachers for you and learn how to trust your gut in the process. Because a lot of times there's a lot of phony people out there that are let me take your money and yeah, money we need to live on and survive on.

KATHLEEN: But there are lot of people that take your money and deliver nothing. I'm so much the opposite. I give much more than receiving on the back end.

KATHLEEN: I'm working on changing that about. Working through my own worthiness issues and deserve issues. I am worthy to receive this money because from abundance, he took abundance and yet abundance remained and it took me a long time to truly understand that. Somebody had put that into from the ocean, you put in a tablespoon and you take the water out.

KATHLEEN: So from abundance, he took abundance and yet abundance remains. If you take it as that, you've got a tablespoon and you are taking water out of the ocean. Does the ocean see it or miss it? No, because there is that much more.

KATHLEEN: When I really started to understand that concept and make sense of it, I got it and that's what I want to do is give as much as I can for you to be able to pick up the ball and start moving in that new direction because we are in the middle of a huge transition on this planet. It's so exciting and I want you guys to be able to handle that.

KATHLEEN: I want to tell you a little bit more about how you can get in touch with me and some of the services and things that I do offer. I am a certified coach and you can find all of my information at Kathleen M Flanagan dot com and I have tools there. I have meditations.

KATHLEEN: I have a lot of podcasts and videos that I've done blog post, that kind of thing, that give you a rundown of everything. I do have YouTube and I'm on Facebook and Instagram.

KATHLEEN: I also have Awakening Spirit is the aromatherapy company I was talking about. It's a natural line of organics, essential oil products, body care products. I do hair, skin massage oils, insect room sprays, therapeutic oils, all of that. I'm in the process of redesigning the packaging. I'm in the very early stages, but we are in the process of doing it.

KATHLEEN: I'm pretty excited. We're going to bd doing more sustainable packaging even though most of the product is glass. We're going to go a little bit more sustainable and stay on where this world is going and to stay true to what I've always felt about the company is that I have always been about taking care of the earth, protecting the earth.

KATHLEEN: I started this 30 years ago before recycle was out, before anything was out. I was already doing this and talking to people about organics and so on and so forth. People thought I was a little crazy because they didn't know what I was talking about yet. Here we are in a world that is totally about that today.

KATHLEEN: If you're interested in learning more, you can go to Awakening Spirit dot com. There's a list of all the products and what I do. We redesigned that website, recently. We give it a facelift then.

KATHLEEN: Now we're going to move it to the next level and for all of the viewers here, we are in the process of redesigning the company packaging. What I'm offering is that if you decide to buy something in the coupon code type in Brave TV, and you will receive a 40% discount on the products. This is a gift that I'm giving to you.

KATHLEEN: That way you can start experiencing a little bit more about what I do.

KATHLEEN: Also the other thing that I have is grandma's natural remedies dot net. That is the CBD company. There's only about a handful of products. It's all topical. It works with sleep, it works with pain. We have a pet blend. Well, it's not really a blend but it's, CBD and everything is in organic hemp, seed oil does have essential oils.

KATHLEEN: We also do stress like a chill out. All of this works very quickly and efficiently. When I use this on the sleep, when women go through menopause, one of the biggest complaints we all seem to suffer from is we forgot to how to sleep.

KATHLEEN: What I found when I put the sleep well with the CBD on the bottom of my feet within three or four days, I stopped using it because I remembered how to sleep. When I do have a lot on my mind or whatever, I use it and people that have had back injuries, knee injuries, knee replacements, all that kind of stuff, arthritis.

KATHLEEN: People have used it and it was instant relief on the product. We have a lot of testimonials. I did a lot of research on this product before I brought it out to the market.

KATHLEEN: Also if you enter Brave TV, in the coupon code there, you'll receive a 20% discount on the product as well. That's a little bit about how to get in touch with me. I also have Brave TV at Kathleen and Flanagan dot com. That is all those emails will come directly to me.

KATHLEEN: I will see them because it's related to the show. It's not going to go through the network. It's that way so I can answer you, answer directly or we can have whatever on the show, whatever you want.

KATHLEEN: I want this to be an interactive show and that we start connecting in a cool way because we're all one and I'm sure some of the things that you've been through, I would love to hear about because we all have these unique journeys and we learn from each other sometimes through the journeys that we go through.

KATHLEEN: When I created Awakening Spirit, I called it that because it was a way that I started waking up my spirit. Aromatherapy helps you to remember who you are by going by smelling through the olfactory. Our essential oils are in a crazy toxic environment.

KATHLEEN: They are adapting and they help us to adapt to the craziness that's happening to our planet right now, which then helps us to relax and calm down more. That's why when Awakening Spirit started, that was the whole point that was a way for me to be able to do this. Then I became an aesthetician and I also became a sound therapist at the same time.

KATHLEEN: I wanted to do is this healing modality that I received from the Archangel Ariel back when I went out to Chicago was an amazing experience. I learned how to bring a different type of healing modality.

KATHLEEN: I do have on the KMF site, a free three minute destress meditation and all it's doing is realigning your chakras to help you get back into balance with yourself and to be able to maintain your equilibrium in this crazy world that we live in. Tthat's a free gift. There's no email required to that.

KATHLEEN: You're welcome to go to the website and download that and, and it gives you an introduction to what sound does.

KATHLEEN: I also am an aesthetician and I love it because that whole touch and getting a facial and being in somebody's energy and you come out and you feel rejuvenated and refreshed and 20 years on your face from a crazy month and you look rejuvenated and hydrated and you're bouncing around like a little kid again. That's the cool part about touch.

KATHLEEN: When spirit asked me to become an aesthetician, I thought they were nuts and they showed me the reason why I was going to become an aesthetician wasn't so I could give facials. It was about the healing. I was going to experience and what I was going to give to others.

KATHLEEN: What I found that when I talk to people or touch them, they opened up their heart and told me things that they don't tell anybody. I listened, that's all I ever did is that I opened a space and I create a space for you to come and share whatever you need to share if you need.

KATHLEEN: Sometimes I'll talk back and, and tell you my opinion or thoughts. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes you need an ear. What happened in that relationship with a lot of my clients was I was getting healed too. I was oh my God, I'm not alone in this world.

KATHLEEN: Others feel the same way I do. It helped me to open up and blossom even more because I thought I was the lone ranger. I thought I was the only one on the planet feeling what I felt, experiencing what I felt, I thought everybody had a way easier life than me.

KATHLEEN: I was doomed to a life of drudgery. Even though I never had that kind of life, it's what I thought about my life. When I became an aesthetician and worked on people and did sound with them as well, all that changed and everything shifted about me.

KATHLEEN: When the 2020 pandemic came along, I knew this was coming for a very, very long time. I knew this when I was a little kid, I knew this was coming and I didn't know what it was or what it would look like back then. But I knew it and I had to really work on my thought processes during that.

KATHLEEN: I as a lot of us had to because it was a very challenging time, but it was a very healing time and it was an amazing time on many, many levels that most of us will probably never know the full extent of what the pandemic was all about.

KATHLEEN: The one thing that came out of that for me was that I got brave and I started becoming a guest on podcast shows and I started to realize, I really do know a lot. I really do embrace who I am. I really took that on. When I said after, when they tried to carry this on for another year I said, no, no, I'm done.

KATHLEEN: I'm done. What I had to do with my mental thinking to get back into the place that I needed to be in and not in this depressed state of mind and isolation and all of that because it really did something in my mind, which I think it did to a lot of people and that's why our world is the way it is today.

KATHLEEN: But coming back from that and the tools that I use that I would be more than happy to share with you on what that entailed to come back into a world. Even though this world is not the same, it will never be the same. We are still going up on the evolutionary process. We are still climbing.

KATHLEEN: We are still elevating light is still coming in and it's hitting us and the darkness that we see, it's only because the light is hitting all the darkest recesses of people on this planet. We are becoming aware, we are seeing our lights are shining and we are becoming those ethereal beings, even though we are still physical and we are dense and everything else.

KATHLEEN: Just because you are awakened doesn't mean you're not going to have human experiences and you're not going to feel anger and rage and frustration and joy and happiness. It's judgments people put on our emotions and it's just an emotion. It's not a judgment. It's just an emotion.

KATHLEEN: When you are feeling that you're in something that you really hate, like fear or terror or panic, just be with, it, breathe into it and within 90 seconds it will be gone. But you have to breathe into it because that's part of our spirit.

KATHLEEN: That's part of what's happening inside is our ego is terrified about something because you're making a change in your life and instead of lashing out at people, it's be quiet and be still because when you're quiet and you're still, and you give time for yourself is when you can calm down and you can get out of the rat race and you can create the world that you want.

KATHLEEN: Even though our world is insane right now, it is not my world. I refuse to have that world in my life because I believe that I can have everything and then some. It's all in how I choose to think about and what I think about and how I respond and how I handle myself in life.

KATHLEEN: I've been finding because I've been working so much on that within myself. I'm finding that things aren't rattling me as much. I roll my eyes a lot like, oh God, here we go again. The main thing is that we had this torrential downpour for an hour, two weeks ago with hail and everything at midnight to one o'clock in the morning. When I went out the next day, the whole area was flooded.

KATHLEEN: I mean, literally, it was flooded everywhere. We just discovered last night that my crawlspace in my basement is flooded and it was standing water. We didn't even know it because we went down there and we started taking the water up and it was I don't care, I'm not dealing with it tonight. I'm not dealing with it today. I will deal with it after the show because right now it's about this.

KATHLEEN: This is what's most important. I'll deal with the water. I'm an environmental consultant. Trust me, I understand about mold and everything else and we got to get this taken up. It's when you work on your mind, the things that happen in life are situations, circumstances and events and there's no emotion tied to it.

KATHLEEN: Next week, I want to talk about transformation, the fundamentals of alignment. That's what we're gonna do is we're gonna start unpacking some of that. Also I'd like to say, thank you so much for watching.

KATHLEEN: I can't hear my engineer. We are doing everything through chat. I thought I had 2 15 minutes segments at an eight and found out it's 3 15 and an eight. It's a little crazy today. But you know what this is, how I'm handling it. I'm not upset. Don't care. It's a little backwards. Who cares? It's what it is.

KATHLEEN: I get to spend 15 more minutes with you and this is when you work on your mind and you work on being happy and not allowing your circumstances, situations and events control your life and your emotions, you take it with a grain of salt and you move with a grain of salt. It's so easy to flow through life and that's what's happening.

KATHLEEN: I think this is a prime example of what's going on today. With the water in my basement and I have this going on and I'm like, whatever, who cares? Life is still going on. I'm still happy, I'm still here. I don't want to be phased by a lot of things, it doesn't mean things don't upset me. Trust me. I still can rage.

KATHLEEN: I can be very good at it, but I'm not near as bad as I was about it because I don't take everything personally and I think that was the main thing when you start getting a handle on your emotions and identifying what those emotions are because a lot of people don't know what their emotions are. They know they feel something but they don't know what that something is.

KATHLEEN: When you take time to really think about what is it that you're feeling and why are you feeling it and what may have triggered that feeling? You start analyzing that and reflecting back on it, then you can start learning how you respond. One of the things that I've learned that when the situation happened, I would always respond in anger and then took it personally.

KATHLEEN: A lot of times somebody bumps into my car, I get in an accident. It doesn't mean it's my fault. It's just what it is, I take it personally. God's mad at me or whatever it is that strange thing that I think. I always used to take, I still do on too many levels. I still do.

KATHLEEN: I'm really working on this one about not taking everything personally. I can read people really, really well and I can see through people and if I confront people, they don't necessarily like it. I used to take that personally and I used to keep my mouth shut because I wanted people to like me all the time.

KATHLEEN: Then when people started to like me, I was like, why are you liking me? I don't think I want you to like me because I was insecure about who I was that it was so much easier to have people stay away from me. I used my anger as a defense mechanism and I decided one day back in 2008, I didn't want to be that person anymore. I made a conscious choice to start changing.

KATHLEEN: All of this is actually in my books, I actually wrote a trilogy. It's Dancing Souls, the journey of an Awakening Spirit. Two of the three of the books are already published and you can get them on Amazon. It's actually a journey of what I went through in my wake up process. In the book, I don't have the language that I have today.

KATHLEEN: It was very raw, what I was going through, what I was feeling, what I was experiencing. But I was connected to spirit. I can't even begin to tell you the things that were coming in at that point in time in my life, it was mind blowing of what was going on. It's also a very dark book.

KATHLEEN: When you start getting into book two, it starts getting dark because when you start moving and changing paradigms and wanting to be a better person, all of your stuff starts coming up, all the head trash comes up. It was how I kept saying this is what I, this is what I want. This is what I want.

KATHLEEN: I just kept believing in that and finding security in myself. There are times that in this book because I was working with God and they were talking to me, my guys were talking to me all the time. Spirit was talking to me. I was having some of the most amazing experiences, some of the most amazing dreams on the planet.

KATHLEEN: It was all part of what we go through as we wake up. What I found in that process was there were times when I was upset that I can't even fathom how God can love us when I see what we do to people and animals and our environment and how God could love us to that degree because I certainly can't love like that.

KATHLEEN: I truly admit that. There were times when I said God, I think you should just kill us all now, including me because there was so much pain and turmoil and I didn't even know how to even express it and the disgust. Then it was again, what do you, what do you want?

KATHLEEN: What do you want? What do you want and change your thinking? Even though I feel that this mission that I'm on was so big and so huge that I didn't think I could do it. It was that big of a dream of what they wanted me to do. Yet I always saw where I am today. I always saw it.

KATHLEEN: Here I am today going through this and knowing that no one but no one can do what I do just like whatever your mission and goal or dream is in life. No one but you can do it. You are the one that holds the dream. You are the one. We are all cogs on a wheel and because we are cogs on a wheel, we all play a role and every person has a purpose.

KATHLEEN: Even if they are an antagonist to you, that's a good thing because they're showing you something, they are teaching you something that you can't normally see within yourself. When you're seeing that, it helps you to grow and evolve and become more compassionate and understanding of other people.

KATHLEEN: Like with this book of the journey of the Awakening Spirit, what this trilogy is all about as far as my journey of why I came down here and what I was here to do. When I was writing the book, at times, I'm oh my God spirit is dictating some of this stuff, just dictating. I'm oh my God, oh my God. What would you do?

KATHLEEN: What would she do? But it was exciting and life is supposed to be like that. Even when it's hard, life should still be exciting. We should still come with a childlike place and heart. If you're coming from a childlike place and you can remember what it was like being a child, you're gonna make your life so much easier and so much better.